Ever since a thoughtful friend shared Sarah Kay’s TED talk with me years ago, I have been enamored of her work. She recently shared a poem from her new book, and I wanted to share it with you, my dear blog readers. xoxoxo
I lay resting next to you–
Your heavy eyelids drifting
in and out of dreams
Your fingers wrapped around my
I gently unweave myself from you
tiny bone of my bone
flesh of my flesh
And move the strings out of your grasp
–but I like the way they look
Enclosed in little hands
fresh from Heaven
I want you to hang onto me forever
How will I know when to let you go?
Up in my figurative tower
Growing out my hair
Her tight hold on my soul
Mirrored only by the way she held the brush
For another twist
Manipulate my spirit, my voice
In, out, down, through, under, twist, braid, tight, tighter, tighter….
Who hired me
as architect for your early life?
My experiences with Legos are hardly
Sufficient credentials, I think….
Still, I labor
Planning the experiences that will build
Modifying blueprints as my
on-the-job training requires
Will you love soccer, ballet,
More importantly, will you love
Your fellow beings?
With experiences as cinderblocks and
Love as mortar
We work together building the edifice of
Across endless power lines
Like notes on a staff
When I die, will you paint me
Eyes set forward, without tears for Ethan’s cancer at age six (he was here oh-so-briefly)
Brow long and high, not with wrinkles borne of worry for
Kaitlin’s solo, Jonathan’s baseball championship, and later
Kaitlin’s failing marriage, Jonathan’s lost job, and even later
Burying Jim after thirty-six years of happily and not-so-happily
Will you paint me innocent? Free from fear?
Yet I look in the mirror at my
Hands once delicately fingering a piano, rolling a cookie, painting a homecoming poster
And I wonder
If each mark of age represents an
Would I trade it all back for a young face, thick hair, and soft hands?
The notes don’t come as easily as they once did
And yet, in some ways, they are easier
Maybe her fingers are more nimble from the hours of
Hours at her disposal are no longer available
When she sits to play, as she once did
Several lifetimes ago
She feels the same.